Oh I am pissed

Today was my weigh in and guess what? I'm up four freaking pounds. I can't believe it. I'm super active now and I have not lost one pound. Hell when I was doing half assed workouts before I was losing weight. I don't know what's going on. But it's resorted to me doing calorie counting. Nothing exact but I'm tracking what I eat to get an idea of what I'm intake is. Oh and I have to eat something like 800 calories less than the daily intake of 2000 to lose one pound a week. Oh em geezy. I have to stick with this until the end of the year. This is going to be hard. I totally miss the days of when I was younger and I could eat whatever, whenever and not gain weight. Right now I'm hella jealous of everyone who has a naturally high metabolism. This some bull. lol I'm pretty sure I'll be evil for the rest of the year. Can't eat (well I have to be extremely careful) just to lose weight. I never thought that I would have to diet. Well at least I can up my calories once I finally get the weight off... :-/